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Settling for a life of Mediocrity

Since July 2017 after my horrible breakup with Natalee, gusto ko icheckup sarili ko once a year.

Last year, nagsulat ako about anniversary namin ni Nikia.

Ngayon, akalain mo 2 years na kami ni Nikia! Bait nga niya eh siya yung partially na nag sponsor ng OnePlus 7 ko!

So, self, kamusta ka naman ngayon?

Hmmmm, well, self, Ok-ish parin ako kay Nikia. Ok na hindi. Gusto na ayaw na. Ganon. Not sure if ako lang nagkaka feelings na ganto. I love the company she provides. As usual, bait padin niya sa mga kapatid at parents ko, at sagot din niya pagpapalinis ng ngipin ko.

Lately, parang namomroblema siya. Dati free parking ako, ngayon dami niya visitors napapabayad tuloy ako.

Actually ako din nagkaka problema parang kay HoPe noon kaya Ok-ish lang ako. Alam mo yung comfort zone ko si HoPe noon? Back then I felt that I needed to let go to grow, and I deeply regretted it initially. Pero ngayon mas ‘mature‘(?) na ako and I realized I guess I needed makipag break kay HoPe, ayawan si Stellanini, iwanan ni Ana, at isexually harass ni Natalee para mameet ko si Nikia.

Ewan ko ba, si Natalee kasi noon trip na trip pwet ko. Sa araw araw na nagkikita kami lagi niyang sinasabi ‘Ass of U and Me’. Pretty sure if I say that to a co-worker I’ll get reprimanded, probably fired, not impossibly jailed. Mejo naka move on naman ako sa trauma na caused ni Natalee, pero at times nagttrigger siya, minsan natatawa nalang ako minsan nalulungkot na nasapit ko yun sa kanya. Hello, di ako maka move on sa relationship ko 10 years ago ito pa kayang 2 years ago lang tapos pain and suffering lang sinapit ko. But I digress.

Ngayon, same as with everytime I am in my life after two years, may feelings na parang ayaw ko na. Two years kami ni HoPe, below two years kami ni 10 years ago, below two years kami ni Ex. Para akong Spam na may 2 year expiration date (yes yes canned goods have 2-5 years expiration date).

Torn parin ako eh. On one hand, similar to HoPe baka iregret ko na umalis. Sayang yung benefits na bigay ni Nikia and yung kaluwagan niya, but then again nameet ko si Nikia due to me leaving HoPe, pero this hand is the hand that stays with Nikia. On the other hand, nahihirapan nadin ako on some days with Nikia eh. Ganto kasi, sobrang talino ni Nikia. Like ang dami niyang alam. Mga 154 years of knowledge yung alam niya. Recently lang naman siya nag aral about telecomms pero ang vast. Kahit two years na kami I feel like hindi ko parin siya maintindihan. I understand the need to add responsibilityies dahil two years na kayo, pero parang lagi akong kulang. Parang hindi ko mameet expectations niya sakin. Tinry ko naman aralin pero wala talaga eh. Bigla kang tatanungin ng something na hindi mo alam tas ayun mafefeel mo ang bobo mo. At least kay HoPe and Ana alam ko gagawin and I welcome new stuff. Pero kay Nikia I still feel overwhelming me incompetent most of the time. And nakakadepress yun. Well, at the very least, unlike Natalee hindi niya ipapa mukha sayong bobo ka via 1 hour sermon. (G NA G FOREVER).

Next question is, anong gagawin ko if mag break kami ni Nikia? A few months ago, may FB ad na nag pop-up, may free Pilot Training daw CebPac! Tapos naalala ko childhood dream ko yun. So since wala naman mawawala sakin nag apply ako. Kahit na alam ko na I am too old, short, fat, ugly, short-sighted to be a pilot.

So ayun literally today (10/17/2019), nakatanggap ako ng email, to no one’s surprise hindi ako napili hahaha. So my ningas-kugon pilot dream ay wala na.

May filipino saying na ‘kung gusto may paraan kung ayaw maraming dahilan‘. Sabihin mo sakin ‘May ibang ways naman para mag pilot’. To you I say, yes there are. I e-mailed tons of Flight training schools. All of them costs minimum of Php2Million pesos. And most, if not all, require 20/20 eyesight, and not even all guarantees na mahihire ka after grumaduate. Malaki kasi Php2Million para sa akin. Hindi ako kasing yaman mo, retired na din tatay ko. Mag loan ng Php2Million? Tapos pag wala akong work after 2 years pano na? Pano ko babayaran yung Php2Million? Eh kung ininvest ko nalang yung Php2Million diba edi sana magka Php200Million ako in 5 years! #FinanciallyIlliterate

I am currently at an impasse now. I am a man with no yearnings for greatness. Ok na ako sa mediocrity. And is that really a bad thing? This is a reason kaya ayoko magka anak. Ayoko ng responsibility. ‘Eh being a Pilot responsible ka sa lives ng marami’ siyempre had I become one my view would change. Also hello parental and pilotal/work responsibility are NOT THE SAME. Pero ngayon. Ok na akong maging grunt. Wala akong yearning na maging Manager and above. Masaya na ako na tell me what to code and I will code it adequately. Hindi ko alam if ako lang yung may feelings na ganito. Yung walang managerial aspirations. I mean if I will stay with Nikia or find someone like Nikia, gusto ko ganon lang nag cocode lang no managing people just code code code. If lahat destined for greatness, sino yung gagagwa ng low-level work para ma ensure na dekalidad yung vision mo?

So ano take away ng post na ito? Hmmm wala. Unlike 2 years ago na nag Starting Over Again ako, from pag susupporta ng mga operation nina HoPe, Ana, at Natalee. Ineensure ko na dekalidad yung sistema kasama ni Nikia.

At last year yung post ko sabi ko wag matakot kasi may Lina naman.

Ngayon wala hahahaha. I realized and accept that I have no aspirations for greatness and mediocrity will be my life. Depressing but it is what it is. Ika nga ng ibang Catholic friends ko ‘Be thankful na may trabaho ka, yung iba walang trabaho’. HA HA HA

Xiaomi MiJia M365 My First EKSperience

Xiaomi MiJia M365 My First EKSperience

Disclaimer: This is not a review. This is a disjointed commentary on my experiences with M365.

A few months back, I decided to buy a Xiaomi QiCycle for coding days. I bought it not to save some gas money, not for exercise, but specifically for coding days. I drive Diesel cars so my gas consumption is substantially more bearable than Gas cars so getting a QiCycle was definitely not due to economic reasons.

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Now that I have a QiCycle for coding days and going to and from near places, why did I get a Xiaomi M365? Well, for one, is because it is soooo damn fun to ride.

Frustrations Before Bliss

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I got this M365 dirt cheap on Facebook. Someone was selling for Php13,000 and that was too enticing not to grab. YES I AM VERY IMPULSIVE. After buying, this was when I experienced two frustrations. One by my stupidity, the other by luck.

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First, I was initially very disappointed as M365 was not able to pull me uphill. I am obese yes, but I am barely 90kgs. I thought M365 was weight-ist. It was really frustrating I wanted to sell it. Then I read the label. Green Light is eco mode. Damn that was idiotic. When I used in normal mode. Zip zap! That was amazing! It was so fun that I circled our village multiple times. Even my dad got in on the fun and loved it!

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Here is the second frustration. A friend of mine has been scooting for quite some time now in Makati and he never had a flat tire once. On my first ride, boom, FLAT. This was incredibly infuriating as I had to get a grab to work (Php139), if I used the car it would barely cost me Php40. (Mileage of Hyundai Accent is about 13km/L).

That was when I decided once is more than enough and bought Honeycomb Solid Tires from Bee Store Lazada (Which costed me an astounding Php1,700) and additional Php1,000 for installation. Yes I could have installed it myself right? Yeah, no. I’d rather pay someone to do it than do it myself and risk destroy it.

After the tires were installed there is assurance now that Flat tires will no longer be a problem. I’d gladly sacrifice ride comfort over unexpected unusablitiy which then includes unexpected expense. I know my route and I know when to go faster and when to slow down so personally, solid tires is the way to go.

Use Case(s?)

As mentioned earlier, I typically don’t buy stuff for economical reasons. I’ve spent Php30,000+ for QiCycle solely for coding days and getting an M365 seems redundant. Yes and no. Yes it may seem redundant but for me M365 has some niche uses.

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I love MilkTea and this love has made me suspect to diabetes. I tend to forego going to the gym because the gym near me is 3 flights of stairs with almost always no parking. I can’t leave my QiCycle on the ground floor because the chain maybe cut and people will blame me, the victim, and offer me hindsight advise like ‘Dapat kasi nilock mo ng 1000 locks’ (you should have used 1000 locks for your bike), ‘Alam mo naman na maraming magnanakaw iiwanan mo pa unattended’ (You know it is dangerous to leave unattended why leave it?). Carrying a 27kg bike 3 flights of stairs sounds and is hard. Hence this is a use case of M365. Going to the gym. As of writing I’ve already went once! How devoted will I be going to the gym moving forward? I don’t know but currently, M365 is a much better option.

Actual Usage

As mentioned earlier, I replaced the pneumatic tires with solid tires. On plain roads, riding does not feel that much different. If the road is not plain, this is where the solid tires is a literal rattling ride. There is an ongoing road reconstruction near me and I go through it all the time and that thug thug thug thug thug rattling in your head is a certainty.

I’ve read that M365 is supposed to have about 30km mileage, unfortunately for me, for the past 3 times I used the scooter to work, from my house and to the office, I go from 100% to 50%. My work is only 7km away so this is a bit of a disappointment. But I then realize, this is probably due to multiple inclines, some steeper than others as well as my heavy weight. So, I understand this mileage and do not hold this against the scooter. Better hit the gym more than I planned, I guess. LOL.

Lastly, justifying my purchase, riding a bicycle and riding an electric scooter are vastly distinct. There is a familiar joy in riding a bike (I bike to school back in the day) whereas riding my M365 is like riding a toy. A fun big boy toy that puts a smile on my face whenever I push the throttle. And I don’t know about you guys but I personally think that as long as that frivolous thing I bought makes me happy. I’m ok with it. And riding in our village, riding to work and from work, bike or scooter, devoid of traffic with extra time to spend to play games, play with your dog, chatting with family, or whatever you do is definitely worth the premium.

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I don’t want to give too much comparison between the QiCycle and the M365 as I intend to make a comparison on it in the future. So for now, Thanks for reading!

 

 

 

Heaven Knows – My Favorite Song

Isang classic na paborito kong kanta ang ididiscuss ko ngayon.
Heaven Knows

 

Sinilang ako early 90s so kabataan ko madalas kong naririnig Heaven Knows ni Rick Price. At sa pag tanda ko, kada gadget na mahawakan ko na kayang mag play ng music isa ito sa unang una nilalagay at pinapakinggan ko. Up until now kahit hindi siya ideal music to test earphones, go to music ko parin siya. Medyo adik ako bumili earphones eh.

So bakit ko ba siya gusto? Well, unang una isa sa hinahanap ko sa mga kanta ay yung sense ng kanta. Ayoko ng KPop kasi hindi ko sila naiintindihan. Ayoko ng Watch Me Nae Nae kasi well. Who does?

May story yung Heaven Knows eh. At familiar yung story. Tungkol sa isang tao na gusto mag move on. Isang tao na gusto kumawala kahit masakit sa kanya. Pero tanggap niya na kailangan niya mag move on. Mula umpisa hanggang sa dulo ramdam mo yung struggle ng kumakanta kung gaano kahirap siyang i let go yung nakaraan niya. Ewan ko. Umaasa babalik pero tanggap niya na wala na. Multiple verse, great refrain, classic chorus, and yung pinaka nagustuhan ko is yung nakaka goosebumpsna bridge.

Yung Bridge.

Only Heaven Knows
Why I live in despair
‘Cause wide awake or dreaming
I know she’s never there
And all the time I act so brave I’m shaking inside
Why does it hurt me so….

Try natin tagalugin.
Alam ng langit
Bat ako malungkot
Gising man o tulog
Alam kong wala siya don
At nagpapangap na matapang
Nanginginig lang
Bakit ba ang sakit

Damn. Solid. Maraming kanta din naman na madaming lyrics pero para sa akin ito yung may dating sakin. Yung balladic story telling really gets me.

Pero personal lang naman itong Opinion ko. Basta maganda itong kantang ito. Payt Me.
Anyways ayun lang gusto ko lang magshare ng favorite kanta ko. So bye for now! Wala ako magawa so nagsulat nalang ako pantanggal stress! Haha!

PS: Tagalog Version ng Heaven Knows (Kung di pangit boses ko kinanta ko na ito hahaha)

Laging nasa isip
Mula sa pag gising
Gang sa matulog
Lagi siyang naroon
Siya lang alam ko
Kahit ang layo nya
Lumalakas lang lalo
Araw araw
At kahit na wala
Humahawak pa

Sabihin saan simula
Nasasaktan ako
Ayokong kumawala

Baka bumalik din ba lang araw
Alam ng langit to
At baka muling magtagpo puso
Alam ng langit to

Ang magagawa lang
Ay umasa
Alam ng langit

Sabi ng tropa ko
Na kung mahal mo talga
Dapat pakawalan
At kung bumalik ng mabait
Alam kong siyay akin

Sabihin saan simula
Nasasaktan ako
Ayokong kumawala

Baka bumalik din balang araw
Alam ng langit to
At baka muling magtagpo puso
Alam ng langit to

Ang magagawa lang
Ay umasa
Alam ng langit

Bat ako malungkot
Gising man o tulog
Alam kong wala siya don
At nagpapangap na matapang
Nanginginig lang
Bakit ba ang sakit

Baka bumalik din balang araw
Alam ng langit to
At baka muling magtagpo puso
Alam ng langit to

Ang magagawa lang
Ay umasa
Alam ng langit 3x

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Anniversary with Nikia

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A year and a third ago, I wrote a piece about my past relationships.

Fast forward to today. Anniversary na namin ni Nikia. One Year na kami. Sure may ups and down pero ewan. I feel better here. Am I happy? Verging on yes, and at the very least content ako. I may not be as happy as I was with Ana. Pero in terms of growth and development, mas madami ako natututunan kay Nikia. And the perks. First, may free parking kina Nikia eh. Sure meron din naman kina Ana and Natalee, pero ang mahal ng parking pag pupunta ako sa kanila. P200 per day halos.

Pangalawa, alagang alaga ni Nikia pamilya ko. Being panganay, malaking tulong yung alaga ni Nikia sa parents ko pati mga kapatid ko. Mula ng naging kami ni Nikia, alaga agad buong pamilya ko. Hindi tulad ng iba na 6 months bago nila alagaan family mo.

Most importantly, bago kami magkita ni Nikia sa pang araw araw, hindi na ako umiiyak tulad kay Natalee noon. Dati bago ko imeet si Natalee, nasa kotse lang ako umiiyak. Nalulungkot, nasusuka. Sa iba sige kaartehan lang ito. Pero iba ang pain tolerance ko sa inyo. Hindi ako umiinom ng Soft drinks dahil nasasaktan/ayoko sa fizz, I am a weak dependent man. Kung kaya mong tiyagain ang isang toxic relationship, aba edi ikaw na. Hindi naman porket susuko ka ibig sabihin loser ka na or typical millenial ka na. At hindi rin porket nag sstay ka ibig sabihin loyal ka, minsan katangahan na yan. I left Natalee kasi personally natotoxican ako sa kanya, yung lahat ng mali mo pinupuna. And pinupuna in a way na ang pakiramdam mo ang bobo bobo mo. May nararamdamandin naman ako anxiety paminsan minsan kay Nikia minsan pero alam mo yun, I have friends who help me overcome the challenges. Not once ako sinabihan ni Nikia na ‘in a way I was expecting more kasi Dean’s Lister ka‘ who brings up stuff from a decade ago. Isang instance na nangyari with Natalee noon. May issue kasi ako noon tapos friend lang ni Natalee may alam ng sagot. So tinanong ko via Skype. Aba nagalit ba naman si Natalee sakin noon kasi daw bakit ko daw skinype pa eh nasa kabilang side lang naman daw yung friend niya. Natalee spouts efficiency pero pag may QQ ka, bawal skype dapat daw puntahan mo sa area ng friend niya para daw mag mingle. Hahahaha umay. OO NA MAARTE NA AKO.

Isa pa was nag kita kami nang weekend sa bahay niya with friends nood daw ng movie. Kahit ayoko sumama parin ako. Tapos nung tapos na movie ayun nag paalam na ako.

Aba nung monday pinagalitan ako bakit daw ako umuwi agad after ng movie dapat daw sabay sabay uuwi lahat as a team. Humaygaaadddd. OO NA MAARTE NA AKO.

Nagkasakit kasi ako non na ospital pa, and I was diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder. Dahil sa toxicity ni Natalee nagka Anxiety ako. What. Ayun after that I decided na bumitaw. Na I don’t deserve this.

A few days after that, ayun. I helped around the house. I helped myself. May pag gym pa ako. I called a friend and asked for help.

True enough ayun, nireto niya ako kay Nikia. Iba si company 😉 si Nikia. Hindi ganon yung nakasanayan ko over the previous 4 years pero ayun nga gusto ko mag reboot ng relationship.

After ilang months ng ligawan, naka ilang follow up din ako sa kanya hihihi. Naging kami ni Nikia.

Kay Nikia, a year into the relationship, ilang weeks na ata ako nag momovie ng weekend pero ok lang. I honestly don’t mind na makita siya kahit weekend (for now anyway). Kahit na 9amto6pm magkasama na kami ni Nikia araw araw. Ok lang kahit minsan umabot ako 7pm kasama siya or ayun nga kahit short notice na kelangan daw manood movie ng weekend ok lang. One year with her hindi pako na oospital. Sure nagkakasakit ako madalas (insert realistic cough here), pero lagnat lang yun. Mabuti na pakiramdam ko ulit after rest HAHAHA

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Starting Over Again

I have always fancied writing. As everything in my life is though, I am a failure as one. But today, I abscond the English language and express (mostly) in to my native tongue as I feel it better expresses how I feel. Una sa lahat. An adage from our country. Bato bato sa langit tamaan huwag magalit. Ito ay isang kwento tungkol sa aking mga relasyong pag-ibig.

 

Hindi ako gwapo/talentado/matalino. The latter, I am average at best. Single ako ngayon and I have been for quite some time now pero masaya ako. Wala lang, gusto ko lang magsulat. Haha. Ako din kasi nameet ko na si ‘The One’ pero binalewala ko. Thinking na I could have someone better. Three relationships later. Wala kulelat. Ngayon masayang masaya na siya, ang laki nang Pinagbago niya, pero ako ito. Nasa bahay ng magulang kasama ang Pomeranian kong si Tyra pati si Zelda.

 

Nagsimula ang lahat ng paunlakan ni Hope ang aking imbitasyon. Mejo anxious pa ako sa initial date namin noon kasi first ko siya eh. Wala akong ka alam alam sa mundo ng pakikipagrelation, Pero confident ako, amidst my minor anxiety, I knew I did well sa first date natin. Sinagot mo ako after ilang dates pa and dun nag start lahat. Masaya ako noon kasi ang dami kong natutunan kay Hope. Looking back, I wish I could have done more nung first months natin kasi during the latter part of our relationship, na realize ko how much easier everything could have been. Marami akong ‘Ahhh ganon pala yon’ moments na sana alam ko noon. After a year, ayan dun ko na feel na nag pprogress tayo kasi doon ko naramdaman yung trust mo sa akin. I valued the trust you gave me and I was sure to make the most of it and make you feel na tama ang desisyon mo sa akin. Life was great until nagging greedy ako. Fast forward to another year, mejo na disappoint ako kasi mukhang ko wala tayong future, I knew I was doing good but what you showed me was not enough. I wanted more for the future and eventually, nag break tayo at naghanap ako ng iba. Ang yabang ko kasi. Akala ko pogi ako tapos hindi pala.

 

At this particular moment in time medyo nag reregret ako na nag break tayo pero I know tama yung decision ko.

 

Ako yung lalakeng ayaw mabakante. Gusto ko lagi may ka relationship ako. Nag ti-Tinder ako non araw araw. Kaya nung nag match si Stella, I aggressively pursued her until sagutin niya ako, without making any extra effort to know her. As much as I initially liked her. Wala ehhh. Nabulag lang ako sa kagandahan. Tas wala naman pala. Sobrang saglit lang ng relationship namin. Breezy boy/girl relationship. Nung na realize ko kasi na wala tayong future at uncomfortable lang tayo sa setup natin sa isat isa ayun nakipagbreak nanaman ako kasi nga sobrang gwapo ko.

 

After the breakup with Stella. Ayan I resolved to be Happy. Di ko na inisip future ko. What I wanted was to be in a stable relationship na masaya ako at comfortable ako sa setup. At sa di sinasadyang pagkakataon, na para bang ika’y nilalaro ng panahon. Dumating siya buhay ko. Si Ana. Unexpected yun. How did you know ang peg. Naglalakad lang ako sa mall noon. Window shopping ganern. Tas nabangga kita. Dun kita nakilala. I shouldn’t be even in that mall kasi di naman talaga ako mall person pero ayun. Nag meet tayo. We really hit it off. Unang date natin, sabi mo not looking for relationship ka (I’m probably going to get feminist triggered here), pero pinursue parin kita. Alam kong may something special satin. Hindi na ako nag paalam manligaw, instead, I just showed you what kind of person I am. And when I felt the time was right, ayun, tinanong kita mala typical Pinoy show ang peg ‘Ano ba tayo?’ Nag blush siya and I told her how I felt. Thank God mutual yung feeling and it was amazing. Nung unang araw na naging tayo grabe na excite ako kasi I felt that it was Hope all over again but much better. I had lunch with you and your friends the first day and we really hit it off as well. Nagulat din ako kasi halos lahat ng friends mo is may kamukha mula sa life ko. Pinsan, schoolmate, workmate. Halos lahat may kamukha. Wannabe ng Spice Girls ang peg. Ka click ko friends mo. I was so happy. I felt I belonged. Na excite ako sa buhay ko and it resulted in me wanting to be better. First thing was to be healthier. Anainspired me to be better and I did. I got complacent sa sarili ko but Ana made me look at myself. She motivated and pushed me further so far as to losing almost 15lbs. It was such a mutual and loving relationship that I planned to be with her forever. Until she decided na ayaw na niya sakin. Like an RKO outta nowhere. Nakatanggap ako ng liham mula sa kanya noon. Sinabi niya na ayaw na niya amd it was devastating. Parang fatality ng mortal kombat na kinuha yung puso ko tas winasak.

 

I tried to talk to her. To her parents. To her friends. I wanted to know why. She did give me a reason. Gusto niya mag migrate and ayaw nya LDR. Better to leave me now than later pa. And it hurt like hell. Sobrang sakit but what can I do. I tried everything humanely possible to no avail I even created a short movie on how much she meant to me but wala na talaga. Before I let her go, I sent her a long goodbye email. Something I never did with my past relationships. It was a letter to thank her for everything she has done for me.

 

I was in a rough spot then. Ehh pag nanjan ako, Breezy mode activate yan kinokontak ko lahat ng babae sa phonebook ko, siyempre nag Tinder din pero ika nga ni Peter Griffin You could find someone else but this seems a little easier coz you already have her number. Ha ha ha. After I hundreds of texts I got a reply from Natalee. Si Natalee ay isang babaeng nameet ko bago si Stella. Rineto siya sakin ni Jenna noon. Ok sana yung dates namin pero Natalee decided to pick someone else that time pero nag break din sila. Now that Natalee was single I made moves. Since ok ung previous dates namin noon, it just felt like a continuation like Victoria and Ted from How I Met Your Mother. And since Jenna approved naman why not coconut mode si acoe.

 

Sinagot niya ako agad sobrang bilis. Pero damn. Kung anong bilis ng ligaw stage ganon ding bilis ng pagbagsak. This is a case na both parties mali. Diko alam expectations niya sakin. Di ko alam setup na gusto niya. Di niya sinabi. Diko inalam. And everything went wrong the very first day. First date namin after niya ako sagutin damn she was late and when she arrived it felt like forever. Mejo napagod ako. And unlike Abilgail and Hope, hell even Stella, Natalee was the worst first date. Alam mo ung first date palang malalaman mo na kung jive or hindi? Hindi ko naramdaman yun kay Natalee. Kay Stella naramdaman ko pa na pwede eh pero waley kay Natalee. Things started to falter further when she started nagging me. Ayoko pa naman ng ganon. Yung putang inang lahat pinupuna. Yung laruan ko sa kotse. Yung cellphone na gusto kong bilin. Yung flavor ng MilkTea na gusto ko, pati ba naman brand ng T-shirt ko pinapakialaman. Lagi nalang may deregatory side comment. Damn. I know na concerned lang siya sa akin pero grabe naman kasi ung nag factor nya. Worst was naalala ko noon. Ang work mo was 1 tricycle away and we are living like 15kms from each other, mas malayo pa yung work ko. For one month noon, araw araw kang nag pahatid sundo. Holy shit.  I’m sounding like a complainer here and I probably am. Gets ko naman if you need me to fetch you. Pero araw araw? Seryoso? Uwian mo pa 5pm tas 1 trike away lang  Papag travelin moko ng 20+km to drive you 2km from work to home?? Expect mo kasi mag Cavalier through ako kasi fan ako ni Lebron?? The hell. Dagdag mo pa yung constant nagging mo when I get late. Yung naghahanap nalang talaga ng rason mapagalitan lang ako.

 

Eventually hindi ko na kinaya yung halos daily na pag nag sakin ni Natalee. Yung mag eeffort ka na puntahan siya tapos papagalitan lang ako. Natalee drained me of my joy.  I know its bad to compare but you have to understand its inhumane to be verbally abused disguised as concern for every single day. Natakot at napagod ako sa kanya. Everyday I wake up, hoping today will be different. Today, I will show her how much I love her pero diko magawa kasi kahit anong gawin ko yung mali ko lagi nyang pinupuna. I can’t remember what it was but there was a straw that broke the camels back. I ultimately decided na ayoko na. Na I don’t deserve to be treated like this. Naiyak ako not because nag break kami but how everything with Natalee turned out. Worse was alam mo kung gano ako nasaktan kay Abilgail. Alam mo ung pinagdaanan at hinanakit ko kasi first date natin nung ligaw stage sinabi ko na sayo shortcomings ko sinabi ko sayo hangganan ko. But binalewala mo lahat. Alam mong I was feeling down and I was hoping you to be source of inspiration to move forward pero hindi ehh pinaramdam mo sakin na pangit, untalented, at bobo ako. And no one deserves to be in a toxic relationship like this. I tried to tell you how I felt everytime you berated me but did you listen? No. You continued your concern-disguised nagging and I just to quote kidz these days ‘I kennat’. I know lots of people have it worse than me pero sila yun. If they can power through the worst of relationships, aba good for them. I’m not built as strong but I don’t think that makes me less of a person if I decided to give up.

 

Natalee made me re-evaluate. Sobrang trauma ko sa kanya naisip ko… Baka naman kasi di naman pala talaga babae para sakin sa isang relationship. Baka iba para sakin. Ganon kalala ang relationship namin that I had to think of this. I have been single for quite some time now but I continue to search for my true love. Baka ngayon, for me to find the right relationship, kelangan ko mag Starting Over Again. I know na malapit na siya. Onting intay nalang… And once I do I intend to be a better person for her or him kung di talaga ako straight. Hahahaha

 

Sa ngayon maraming salamat Hope, Stella, Ana and Natalee. I know our paths will never cross again but I will never forget you for molding me to who I am today. An overweight, average, not Philippine parlanced attractive person.

 

Kung may marereto kayo sakin na relationship, sabihin niyo lang. Single ako. Handa akong magsimula ulit sa umpisa. Hence Starting Over Again.HAHAHAHA

‘QCY’ Lazada Bluetooth Earphone Review (From Wawawei)

‘QCY’ Lazada Bluetooth Earphone Review

Recently, I seem to have been browsing Lazada lately and I happen to come this item which piqued my interest. Why? It looks painstakingly similar to my Soundpeats QY7.

The aforementioned Bluetooth Headset is undeniably the best budget Bluetooth headset period. Especially if you can get it below P1500 (~$30). Regular price is P2500 (~$50) on Lazada with frequent “discounts”

Last Wednesday (Feb 22, 2017), I lost my QY7 due to my carelessness, and since I need a Bluetooth Headset, I decided to pick this one up.

It only cost me P600 (~$12) which I didn’t think was that much expensive. Since it doesn’t have an official name, I decided to call this One ‘Reddy’. Read on and find out my initial thoughts.

 

PACKAGING AND CONTENTS

 

So let’s get right to it. Out of the box you get the following:

An extremely generic package. It doesn’t even have QCY branding.

Extra sets of ear buds

Instruction manual

A charging cable

And the device itself

 

BUILD AND DESIGN

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Taking the device out one thing is certain, the build quality is terrible. It feels extremely plastic and feels like it will break sooner rather than later. It is also lighter than the QY7.

The buttons are clicky and loud in a bad way and you need to press them hard to register.

Having a QY7, you would think that since they looked the same they would have similar build quality, alas, don’t judge a BT headset by its ad clearly applies here.

Reddy has 3 buttons similar to QY7 but same with its look they don’t function akin to the aforementioned.

On the right you have the pairing button which functions as such. You will even be greeted to the same voices as the QY7. The right also has the volume up and down. And this is the worst thing about Reddy.

Obviously you would think that + is volume up and – is volume down. NO. It functions as previous and next track respectively. Imagine how annoying that is.

Lastly, since Reddy replaces an active BT headset, I decided to take it for a jog and surprisingly, it did not come off. Be sure to change the fins and the buds to your ear first though.

 

PERFORMANCE

 

I realized that being a $12 headset, I really shouldn’t expect much not only onto the design but overall.

So as to performance, I can say that its obviously not in par with other $30 Best BT headset but it is serviceable. Reddy has a muffled sound quality which lack quite a lot of detail BUT its not as tinny or ear deafening as Elliot Audio Active 2, which I already consider a win. The bass is verging on not bad but also not good as the muffling really takes a lot out of the experience.

Personally, I would pick Reddy over EA in terms of sound quality.

Battery life is my biggest surprise as it was able to last me a little over 5 hours which, for $12, is really impressive.

So that’s been it guys, for a $12 Bluetooth Headset that clearly channels QY7, is it worth it?

For me, honestly, no, even if it’s just $12, I find everything about this underwhelming at best. The only saving grace Reddy has is average battery life but the terrible build quality, uninspiring audio quality, and the frustrating button functionalities are clear indicators that this is a clear cut case of ‘don’t judge a book by its cover

 

What I Liked:

Battery Life

 

What I Didn’t Like:

Muffled Sound Quality

Stupid Button Functionality

Terrible Build Quality

 

Journey to the West (Philippine Sea) and Back

(I’ll be posting pictures once I have steady Internet)

This seems a little premature. I wanted to blog about all my ‘adventuring’ experiences at the end of the year to signal that 2017 has been a different year.
So far, I’ve been to more places in 2 months voluntarily than all of 2016 combined.

A while ago (7am in Feb 19, 2017), I was just in the West Philippine Sea with my friends.
We decided to go to Crystal Beach Resort because of all the rave it is getting.

We set off at 5.30am on Feb 18, and arrived shy of noon.
Unfortunately Crystal Beach was already packed. Reservations were needed.
Fortunately the resort Next door was open, PRINCE JB BEACH RESORT.

The rooms which were good for 4, probably six if you can haggle it, only costs P3000.
It is a well ventilated and lit room with your own CR. I don’t know if this is cheap of not, please tell me in the comments.

The clincher here is JB and Crystal are literally a step away.

I found nothing interesting to do here other than swim and surf though. The beach is also too wavy to just float around and relax.
Think mini-Baler.

But hey, I love the beach, I personally find it destressing and calming.

At about 7am, we were packing up and getting ready to leave and this is where things got interesting for me.

At Subic we found a place where the ocean is calm and I think its free. I didn’t kick myself of regret but it made me want to go back and experience the calm ocean of subic. See pics below.

Waze sent me off to a different direction going home and I was stopped by a police officer.

My heart raced as evidenced by my Xiaomi Mi Band 2, as everytime I had to stop I had to pay upwards of P1000.

Holy shit was Kuya nice, he let us off the hook saying that just be careful since it was literally my first time there.

As the boring journey continues back to Manila we found ourselves hungry and we decided to stop at Shell of Asia.

We had 2 places to eat. And we chose the wrong one. Expensive, small serving and the pork is horrendous.

As I started Cruisewind after the Shell of Asia stopover, that’s when I noticed something was off with it. IT started funny but it ran, and as I dropped of my friends in Shaw, Cruisewind went out. In the fucking middle of the road.

Fortunately some kuyas again were there to help. After a few ‘kadyots’ Cruisewindwas running again.

After it warmed up for about 30 minutes, I went off again, only to stop again at the middle of Shaw. I immediately called the MMDAs for help. I knew this time my wallet was going to take a huge asteroid.

Holy shitter! The MMDAs were hella nice. They helped me park the car properly and until the mechanic arrived and they asked nothing in return.

I gave them 2 dozens of donuts for all the trouble. Right now Cruisewind is still dead as there are no open battery charging stations on Sundays, but I’m sure my 10 year old, 0.2Billion Metered Cruisewind will live to fight another day.

This was a whirlwind of a stressful experience but I’m glad that everything worked out in the end.

The last words kuya spoke was ‘Pare pareho naman tayong Pilipino tulong tulongan nalang’

Truly an eye-opening experience that Humanity’s kindness is always around and maybe Change has really come.